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Monday, February 6, 2012


I belong to a FaceBook Forum for other "Big Girls" doing PINK Method.
One of the trainers actually joined the forum, posted and replied in there! The genuineness just blew my mind! It's nice to see people passionate about their line of work!

Eating 1500 calories is difficult. And I'm not sure if it's helping or not. Also battling a hyperactive thyroid >< You would think that this would work IN my favor... But it isn't. It's burning calories FAST and leaving my tummy hungry. I've felt like I was hungry all day today. I've been a bottomless pit of healthy eating!!!! LOL!

I really need to see my doctor about it. Just to find out how many calories she would like me to eat, what food can help keep me more full, what weight does she want me to weigh, blah blah blah.

This is my last week on Phase 1 workouts. From the time the new scale was purchased, I have dropped 10 pounds. I fit in to a pair of sweats I haven't worn since before I was pregnant. Everyone says I look great. I feel great! There's definitely less of me, and I swear my stretch marks are fading too!

I can't wait for this all to come full circle. I can't wait to post my "grand totals"... And, I can't wait to move on to the next thing and push myself to a whole new level. P90X? Running? BOTH?! I'm serious. Once I complete PINK, I'm going to tackle something that seemed impossible to me. Once I complete PINK, I will no longer be in my own way. It's going to be AWESOME! I'm so pumped!!

Thursday, February 2, 2012

Outside Resources

Sorry for not posting more often! So much has been going on that I just haven't had the time.
Well, that is only half the reason...

The other half is because on Monday, I weighed myself and measured hoping to have some "change" to share. I did not.

I kept weighing and measuring on Tuesday, and Wednesday. I was SO confused! I hadn't increased in weight or inches, but with the working out 6 days a week, I thought surely I would have lost an inch!

Today was Bible Study day. I talked with the fitness/nutritionist girl that is helping us out. I told her about PINK ((briefly)) and I told her that I used myfitnesspal to track my calories yesterday. I ended the day at 991. I had 1259 calories left over. I told her that one of my friends said it was possible my body was in "starvation mode". She agreed with that. She told me to keep watching my calories, to start taking in 1500 a day. She said that by doing that, I should start to see more change. She also reminded me to "make my calories count". Meaning, high protein and complex carbs, which I'm TOTALLY ok with! I'm also ok with eating more.

Right now, I'm not that enthusiastic about PINK on the whole. With the limitations on the carbs and protein, it's tough to reach 1500. And no wonder I've felt like I was STARVING!! Sticking to it ((but with the modifications)) because I've already invested time in to it.

I have a friend who I recently inspired to do PINK. A part of me feels a little bit bad for that, however, she is coming over tomorrow so I can at least give her a "heads up".

On the bright side, people have NOTICED a difference in my appearance! I saw a couple girls today from my bible study that ended beginning of December. They said that I look great! (^^)

I saw my butt's reflection in Panera Bread's window this afternoon. I have a very nice tukas! Also, I did notice that my 1 fat roll, you know the one... Under the rib cage and above the gut... It's not as, deep? Is that the word I'm looking for? And "Scott's Pouch" ((the poofy place that is the result of a C-Section)) isn't as protruding either. On a side note, I'd like to think that the "pouch" will go away. But I really don't think it will completely. That would take a miracle, or plastic surgery...

Which leads me to a legitimate concern: What if I lose the weight and have excess skin leftover? Because, that's just as gross as being fat.

I think I'm not going to worry about that. I have to get healthy. I can't be unhealthy to keep my skin "tight". All I can do is keep on keeping on, and hope for the best!

Another random tidbit: If you're exercising and stuff, make sure you get a FULL night's sleep. It really does make a difference!

Friday, January 27, 2012

What A Crazy Week!

This week, life wise, has been a hectic and chaotic. For many, many reasons.

Today is a new day though. Everything has come full-circle for me, and I'm feeling GREAT!


And now, I'm starting to feel my work-outs in other areas. My thighs don't hurt. I can walk like a normal person, and I don't feel stiff either. But I am feeling my work-outs in my ABS! And, my upper arms! Very pleased with that, as it's my stomach and upper arm area that need the most work!!

I'm loving PINK. I'm loving the way I feel as a whole. It's nice to see people I don't see on a regular basis, and have them say that I do look noticeably different as well. I looked at myself naked today, the first time since weighing myself on a hard surface ((the full length mirror is in my bedroom)) I think I'm starting to notice a difference too, or maybe I'm just used to looking at myself and not so critical. Either way, I am proud of me. I know that I'm not even halfway in to this yet, but every day it's easier to stick to.

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

When Life Gives Me Lemons...

... I throw them back harder!

The past 2 days in my personal life have just been terrible. Not my home life, just my personal life. I turned to food in my darkest hour, and I went to bed even more miserable. I've been working on distancing myself from other people's emotional issues, sometimes, when you really care about someone, it's incredibly difficult. That does not mean that I should let it ruin everything that I have going on here. I said that this whole thing was a "learning process"... I am ever learning!

There is nothing I can do to change the situation, so there is no point in getting upset about it. And it definitely isn't worth sabotaging my health over.

On a lighter note, today was day 3 of working out. Day 3 is a much better work-out day! I CAN MOVE MY LEGS AGAIN! (^^) Seriously, I will have thighs of steel! Living in a townhouse makes things challenging, I feel the burn ALL DAY! I know it's good for me. I know I'm on my way to being a very healthy, and in shape, person.

I love working out. It really feels good, even when it hurts. And I'm so incredibly proud with myself. I have more confidence from it too. I strut around my house. I have the energy to do things around the house, and don't feel much like sitting around. My shoulders are back, my head is high. I sleep better, and I wake up more rested. I'm in a better mood, too.

I can't change other people. I can't help those who won't help themselves. I can't turn back time, or undo things. I CAN change myself. I CAN change my relationships with other people. And I CAN lose this weight and get in shape!!

Monday, January 23, 2012

Phase 1, Day 1

Weighed in at 227. Measurements are still 43-42-46.

Did my first work-outs today! I did Kardio and Yoga Core. Very impressed with the effort I put in! Yeah, they were intense, but I was focused!!

Kardio ((which I was so sure would kick my butt!)) was a challenge, but not an unachievable one. Right as it got difficult to breathe, she had us "jog it out" and start something new. My exercise would've been better if Scott wasn't trying to use me as a jungle gym at the same time. They always want attention when you're busy! : )

Now the Yoga... Yoga was ROUGH! I did the best I could to make the poses, and focus on the muscles I was moving... Which is difficult when you're trying to watch the TV to see what to do. I was shaking! Most people who haven't done yoga just don't understand how INTENSE yoga is. The yoga was a lot more difficult for me than the kardio.

Eating-wise I did better today. No, I did not do great. I had a couple pretzels. I should probably just throw them away. I even made a spaghetti sauce out of low-sodium V8! It was GREAT! Loaded in vegetables even!

Energy-wise I feel FANTASTIC! I've had so much energy all day! I cleaned my whole entire kitchen, and even mopped the floor! Mentally, I've been more alert as well. I'm really loving working out!

I took a "detox bath". Baths, to me, are a waste of time. I even dry-brushed before hand. I'm not sure if I made my bath correctly... I didn't feel sick or lightheaded or an intense burn. My skin is much smoother though, and feels hydrated. That in itself makes it worth while!

Since I'm finally sitting, I can feel how stiff I will be tomorrow. The thighs are tight!

Tomorrow, I will be doing Strength Push and Athletic Abs. Totally ready to have more of me hurt!!!

Sunday, January 22, 2012

End of Reset!!

Thank goodness! :D
It's definitely been a struggle. If I could go back 2 weeks ago, there are MANY things that I would've done differently. But, I can't go back. I can't undo anything that I did "wrong". All I can do is move forward... Well, honestly, that's only half-true. I COULD stay on the reset longer, which would probably be a good idea. However, I bought this program for the workouts, and I start those tomorrow.

Did I learn anything? YES! I've learned about portion size, and I've lost my reliability on carbs. I've learned that you don't NEED carbs when you're relatively inactive for energy. I've learned that good food makes you feel GREAT! And, bad food makes you feel terrible. I'll continue to learn, I'm forever "green"... As one of the best bosses I've ever had said "If you aren't 'green', you aren't growing!" If there's nothing left to learn, I might as well not be alive.

Tomorrow morning, expect a post with my weight and measurements. Starting fresh for a new phase! I'm very excited about this phase everyone! I can't wait to start working out! I can't wait to build some muscle, and burn more fat. I can't wait to lose more inches!

Also excited to continue on with my Bible study class, and, to study the Bible on my own.

By nature, I am a quitter. When things get too hard, I move on. This is not a healthy habit to keep, for there are many things in life that we just can't "quit"... Well, I suppose you can, but being a fairly level-headed and responsible person, it would just be counter productive. I'd piss off a lot of people, and not be happy with myself in the end. Any way, I'm making a big effort to continue forward, and to NOT QUIT.

As I've written before, failure is not an option for this girl! I have people who depend on me, and rely on me to be my best. You get back what you put in. Tomorrow, I start fresh! And I "put in" 110%! The only thing left to lose is the extra weight I'm carrying around.

I'm at the point in my life where things are good. I'm happy with myself. I love the person I've grown up to be. It's time to just let my light shine!

Saturday, January 21, 2012


This morning, when I weighed in, my scale was all over the place!

We just bought a new scale. Not only does it weigh you, but it also tells you your body fat percentage, and how much of your weight is water.

I know it's a little late in the day for "weighing", I just really wanted to play with it! The directions said to put it on a flat, hard, level, surface. I did. I stood on it, and it said I weighed 232, which is what I thought my initial weight was!!! I HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH WEIGHT I HAVE LOST!!! I'm freaking out... I feel like somehow everything has come "undone", yet I know I'm smaller. I've been fighting with my yoga pants and undies just to keep them up!

I didn't know that you weren't supposed to weigh in on carpet. On carpet, I weigh 118 :D

Any way, I'm just going to forget about it. I'm going to go ahead and move on to the Primary diet and Phase 1 workouts on Monday like originally planned.

Well, here's to accuracy in the future!